By the time he seized up on the Ingram Hill van, he was averaging two ml bottles of alcohol, or 40 beers, a day. After being released from the hospital, nothing was ever the same, he added.
That window closed. I was either in a state of withdrawal, or you had to help me walk across the room to go to the bathroom. I had jaundice. I threw up all the time. If I sneezed, sometimes I had to change my pants, because my stomach was that rotten. I was falling apart physically.
Many addicts and alcoholics talk about a moment of clarity — the illumination of a mental, spiritual and emotional light bulb that unveils the stark reality of their existence — but for Bogard, it was like a string of lights slowly coming on, one after the other. One had to do with his grandmother, who suffered from dementia, he said. It was an intervention , but not in the conventional sense. How dare you do this in front of me?
He went above and beyond the call of duty and brought it to me from a very real language-of-the-heart kind of place. After he walked out of my house, I made the phone call to my family that I needed to go to treatment. On Aug. He gained 28 pounds in 28 days, and doctors told him that at 28 years old, he was in the top 10 percentile of liver damage because of his alcoholism. More importantly, he added, he discovered his tribe — a group of sober peers with whom he could identify, bond and recover alongside.
I had to rearrange the ideas of principles by which I had run my life up to that point, and more important, I had to really focus on being available to help others, which is not a natural inclination of an alcoholic. But the key to it is helping others. At five years sober, Ingram Hill came to the end of its run — or at least the end of a trajectory that would allow its members to survive financially on Ingram Hill alone.
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